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last weekend of summer!
Someone just reminded me, but I can't believe I didn't already have The World Turns Madly On on my 2020 playlist! it's not that the transition to classes will really be so abrupt, but on principle, every time I'm hit with the surreality of the new normal, I can still barely believe it.
I am looking forward to the semester, though. I know tomorrow'll just mean more reasons to fight with the bursars, but I think I've got some cool courses lined up, and I'll have some real competence in the materials. Am I finally shaking some of that imposter syndrome?? I mean I know it'll come back in something else, but I'm really glad it hasn't got hooks in me for this at least! My goals for academia are pretty solid, then, it'll more be a question of being a person who is good at achieving them online. I'm also a bit anxious about keeping up with my professors online; I can do client emails and supervisor emails and staff emails, but professor emails still turn me into a mess of terrified exclamaition points lmao. Where's that post about how using too many exclamation points is like an animal showing off false eyes in a fear display?? It's also awkward because I've been friends with two of my professors without being their students before - other mutual friends, and some work with my student org - so now I've got to wonder about meshing those positions without being an entire kissass. I know I'm a classic Pleasure To Have In Class sort, but I don't actually try to be such a square! Communicating virtually is just the woooooooorst. I guess who needs more mental self-sabotage when the year is like this!
Anyway, the weekend before the semester is traditionally a nightmare of turning my life into something that can support 4 hours of daily commute, but instead this past few days I've ...watched old movies? and done art? I can't post pics yet bc I want the author to see them first, but I've finished binding a series!! I just need to do the spines and I can send them out as well as another one - spines are such an intimidating step lmao, they're the first thing anyone's going to see so the design has to be on Point, and I can't screw up a finished book either! This series has been in the works for literal years though, so it'll be great to finally show the author how much I've appreciated the works :D
Next up, I wish I could bind again, but my ID access runs out soon, so I'm gonna have to marathon the scripts I want to set with it. aaagh, shakes fist at Adobe! They're both starting as PDFs too, so :| what can I say, I love pain.
I am looking forward to the semester, though. I know tomorrow'll just mean more reasons to fight with the bursars, but I think I've got some cool courses lined up, and I'll have some real competence in the materials. Am I finally shaking some of that imposter syndrome?? I mean I know it'll come back in something else, but I'm really glad it hasn't got hooks in me for this at least! My goals for academia are pretty solid, then, it'll more be a question of being a person who is good at achieving them online. I'm also a bit anxious about keeping up with my professors online; I can do client emails and supervisor emails and staff emails, but professor emails still turn me into a mess of terrified exclamaition points lmao. Where's that post about how using too many exclamation points is like an animal showing off false eyes in a fear display?? It's also awkward because I've been friends with two of my professors without being their students before - other mutual friends, and some work with my student org - so now I've got to wonder about meshing those positions without being an entire kissass. I know I'm a classic Pleasure To Have In Class sort, but I don't actually try to be such a square! Communicating virtually is just the woooooooorst. I guess who needs more mental self-sabotage when the year is like this!
Anyway, the weekend before the semester is traditionally a nightmare of turning my life into something that can support 4 hours of daily commute, but instead this past few days I've ...watched old movies? and done art? I can't post pics yet bc I want the author to see them first, but I've finished binding a series!! I just need to do the spines and I can send them out as well as another one - spines are such an intimidating step lmao, they're the first thing anyone's going to see so the design has to be on Point, and I can't screw up a finished book either! This series has been in the works for literal years though, so it'll be great to finally show the author how much I've appreciated the works :D
Next up, I wish I could bind again, but my ID access runs out soon, so I'm gonna have to marathon the scripts I want to set with it. aaagh, shakes fist at Adobe! They're both starting as PDFs too, so :| what can I say, I love pain.