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Hello Dreamwidth! it's been a hot sec, hasn't it?? apologies for dropping off the face of the planet - me and mine are as well as can be, I just got deeply overwhelmed by the world and couldn't keep up with multiple websites. I hope people are also keeping heads above water and I'm sending out a virtual hug to the world!
As of my last post, I was still in the office - sike, that's closed as hell, of course. We're hoping someone can get clearance to go back in and get copies of some resources - nothing sensitive ofc, but we'd been slowly digitizing some old resources before being kicked out, and boy would those files be handy now that we're so pared back. (still don't know how to do attorney appointments like this. Hope Counsel will have an answer soon) Also, we have all the hard copy notes because the office is 50 years old this year, and we'd been meaning to encorporate some birthday-style festivities into our spring conference, but, uh.
(I really vote we should save up all the holidays that we can't do this year and do them as a Ding Dong The Witch Is Dead / Free 'Stalin Is Dead' Borscht style shindig when we're free of Trump.)
Academically, I don't want to talk about academics lmaoooo. One class that I've been keeping up with, though, has been the one on the AIDS epidemic. I came very, very close to going for medical research because I've always had an interest in epidemiology - and I'm doing philosophy for ethics for medical ethics anyway, so it's not even outside of my interests now - so I was really looking forward to the course. And now, you bet your butt it's surreal to be digging through one pandemic while another rages on. I love the class, the professor is great, I really think that a background in infection is the best antidote to incohate anxiety there is, and my queer chinese-american ass is compartmentalizing so hard to keep from losing my mind here. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯, amirite?
I think I'm getting better at keeping my feet under me, though. Been baking bread, learning how to cut my hair, doing Boredom Pushups with sister, sewing masks / pre-emptively patching clothes, relearning how to sit down and read something published cover to cover, the whole nine yards - I'm certainly doing plenty worrying about the future, but I also think that this is finally teaching me to be more in the moment. Like, I've spent the last entire year too keyed up to let myself read new fiction, because I would feel guilty about wasting time and not be able to focus on it. (dumb, I know! but anxiety is as anxiety does.) I did read a ton of nonfiction, as though I was be 'allowed' to do that instead of ''productive things''. But now that I can't '''accomplish things''' I don't have that coming between me and like, Taran Wanderer. or how I've got the reputation in my family as a fast walker, aka I'm in the habit of powerwalking to get from point A to point B and listening to music on the way so that the trip would pass faster. But being 97% trapped in my own home is teaching me to appreciate urban walking as an end in itself! Mask up, cross the street / hide in a driveway to avoid people, and soak in the spring every now and then that I get to see it. Today I took a hike before it could get hot, all up through the hills and taking the weird twisty staircases that connect the main road when it's too steep for cars. and after that, got to join my old friends for an international zoom hangout. can I get a Thank God for modern technology, keeping us connected through lockdown?? I've been watching so many movies with my long-distance friends, it's so good. our genre seems to basically be mid-2000s hits, aka comfort food for late millennials lmao. Monsters Inc is still good!
I'm working really hard on keeping chin up, and I really hope people are doing well enough too. I think we're officially Living in Interesting Times, but we're still fighting.
As of my last post, I was still in the office - sike, that's closed as hell, of course. We're hoping someone can get clearance to go back in and get copies of some resources - nothing sensitive ofc, but we'd been slowly digitizing some old resources before being kicked out, and boy would those files be handy now that we're so pared back. (still don't know how to do attorney appointments like this. Hope Counsel will have an answer soon) Also, we have all the hard copy notes because the office is 50 years old this year, and we'd been meaning to encorporate some birthday-style festivities into our spring conference, but, uh.
(I really vote we should save up all the holidays that we can't do this year and do them as a Ding Dong The Witch Is Dead / Free 'Stalin Is Dead' Borscht style shindig when we're free of Trump.)
Academically, I don't want to talk about academics lmaoooo. One class that I've been keeping up with, though, has been the one on the AIDS epidemic. I came very, very close to going for medical research because I've always had an interest in epidemiology - and I'm doing philosophy for ethics for medical ethics anyway, so it's not even outside of my interests now - so I was really looking forward to the course. And now, you bet your butt it's surreal to be digging through one pandemic while another rages on. I love the class, the professor is great, I really think that a background in infection is the best antidote to incohate anxiety there is, and my queer chinese-american ass is compartmentalizing so hard to keep from losing my mind here. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯, amirite?
I think I'm getting better at keeping my feet under me, though. Been baking bread, learning how to cut my hair, doing Boredom Pushups with sister, sewing masks / pre-emptively patching clothes, relearning how to sit down and read something published cover to cover, the whole nine yards - I'm certainly doing plenty worrying about the future, but I also think that this is finally teaching me to be more in the moment. Like, I've spent the last entire year too keyed up to let myself read new fiction, because I would feel guilty about wasting time and not be able to focus on it. (dumb, I know! but anxiety is as anxiety does.) I did read a ton of nonfiction, as though I was be 'allowed' to do that instead of ''productive things''. But now that I can't '''accomplish things''' I don't have that coming between me and like, Taran Wanderer. or how I've got the reputation in my family as a fast walker, aka I'm in the habit of powerwalking to get from point A to point B and listening to music on the way so that the trip would pass faster. But being 97% trapped in my own home is teaching me to appreciate urban walking as an end in itself! Mask up, cross the street / hide in a driveway to avoid people, and soak in the spring every now and then that I get to see it. Today I took a hike before it could get hot, all up through the hills and taking the weird twisty staircases that connect the main road when it's too steep for cars. and after that, got to join my old friends for an international zoom hangout. can I get a Thank God for modern technology, keeping us connected through lockdown?? I've been watching so many movies with my long-distance friends, it's so good. our genre seems to basically be mid-2000s hits, aka comfort food for late millennials lmao. Monsters Inc is still good!
I'm working really hard on keeping chin up, and I really hope people are doing well enough too. I think we're officially Living in Interesting Times, but we're still fighting.
