big oof day

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hour and a half over time at work to finish this one report on the last fiscal year, and, damn, I miss the beforetimes. I knew we were doing good, we were getting all the action and feedback, but to know that even our little office was personally taking on >85% of our cases? versus the last trimester of 2019, we had an 89% activity uptick in cases managed in the first quarter of 2020 alone! we could have done so fucking much this year; it just breaks my heart to look at our projected capacity and then how little we've done since then. fucking nerfed, man. it's our 50th anniversary this year; we were gonna have one of our old staff who matriculated to the mayor's office speak at our conference. 


biggest sigh



anyway, the last of my textbooks made it in! my desk pile is now: 

• Christina Sharpe: In The Wake: On Blackness and Being
• Van Norden and Ivanhoe: Readings in Classical Chinese Philosophy
• Amelang's translation of Miquel Parets' Journal of the Plague Year (to which - just one, buddy??)
• Masha Gessen: Surviving Autocracy and The Future is History
• Kate Manne: Down Girl
• Gambrell's translation of Sorokin's Day of the Oprichnik

and my readings are all in different file formats or eles I'd want to bind them up into an actual reader XD but the latest big one was a few chapters of Ann Cudd's Analysing Oppression (pros: formulations of subjective and objective social grouping and oppression. cons: capitalism, and idk, I do think there's some value in psychoanalytic interpretations of group actions)

so, like. in order to annotate all of the most depressing things I can find, I've gotten a new handful of the brightest nonsense-glittery gel pens that can still be legible! WWEWD - what would Elle Woods do, right dudes??