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of all the things I'm working on, this is such a stupid issue to have to contend with
my energy should be spent on productive things, not countering this damnfool obstruction

by some unwelcome star, I've gotten familiar enough with harassment at this point, to have a decent sense of when it's coming. and I'm getting a bad feeling about this guy, the same one who's made the transphobic comments. he just cant stop sucking lmao

anyway, bc I'm so wonderfully getting accustomed to being harassed, I really think it's the intuition of what they're going to do that's the worst part. It's knowing what's going to happen, but not having any recourse. It's helplessness. It's the part where everyone asks, 'so why didn't you stop it? if you knew better, if you REALLY didn't want it, you had all that time to get out'

and BIH!!!!!!!!

it's not! that! fucking! easy!

but everyone says it is, and it gets in your head and it sucks man, it Sucks. so now I gotta deal with not only being harassed, but blaming myself for what these jackholes do to me.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck this noise
anyway, the major event is coming up tomorrow, nbd we're just inviting the bar association, the public defenders, the district attorney, we're hosting them all