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0denseHi Dreamwidth! It's been a million years, but time wasn't real during summer at all and the 2020 ennui got to me :_D
but! I'm still kicking! The semester starts next week and I'm looking at seminars on feminist ethics and political philosophy and epistemic injustice (woo!) and I'll be with the director of the department's law division and the professor I had for that directed reading on totalitarian dynamics, so I can't wait! I might also audit an undergrad course on chinese philosophy with dr philo, so fingers crossed, wouldn't that be so ideal??
Also! I got promoted! ya boy is director of our little divison!! There was an absolutely terrifying week when I first took the reins and just like, didn't sleep enough at all bc I was Sure I was gonna screw up Everything... and then, you know, I didn't? and I haven't! and I'm moving projects along and advocating for our division's needs and building my connection with my mentor in the corporation and, and, what's even better, I'm trusting my staff more! oh my God it feels so good to know that someone has my back in turn!! When I first got my own desk in here we were at half capacity so I got used to pulling like three people's weight, and then the old director and I had a great dynamic so we got used to just handling everything ourselves, so I have been purely shit at delegating, lmao! But this morning was a very important meeting for the next few months' programming, aaand my internet crapped out entirely. Zoom spat me right out, and ofc I was pissed as hell but get this, I wasn't scared at all that our office would be left behind, because my AD was there too and I knew for absolute fact that he has our program planning down pat, and he could represent us without a hitch. I wanted to be part of the meeting, of course, but it didn't have to be me. fuck, dudes, having confidence in your colleagues feels so good! I wish we were in person just so I could get him a coffe and tell him how proud I am of him. I'm gonna have to work late tomorrow to make up what I missed today but I'm not putting out fires, we're on track, even without me being a total type A control freak the sky hasn't fallen. This is fucking amazing progress omg.
Also for Life Updates, the Renegade Bindery has guilded up! enguilded? coalesced?? we're a guild, anyway! I've been doing at least one binding step every evening after work and things, and having concrete progress and an artistic community has been so much fun you guys. I like sewing, but I kinda fell off the costuming wagon after leaving the opera for uni, because it's hard (for me) to keep up a hobby all on my own. But the Bindery is so much positive reinforcement :D! Zine is one scene, but fanbinding is a punk all of its own ;) fuck yeah we're gonna legitimize fic!
So hopefully I can keep these three prongs going into the semester, so I don't burn out on any one project. Academic brain debating everything it touches, office brain practicing at best practices, and artistic brain letting it all unwind! That sounds like a pretty good combo :)
and tonight's radio station is Ankh-Morpork Vibes on spotify, which achieves exactly that :D like, ignore the continent and check the mood on this: the brassiest orchestra! FWEEE exciting chaos noises! noble oboes that get swallowed by the bustling streets! just the sort of dramatic silliness for ankh-morpork!
but! I'm still kicking! The semester starts next week and I'm looking at seminars on feminist ethics and political philosophy and epistemic injustice (woo!) and I'll be with the director of the department's law division and the professor I had for that directed reading on totalitarian dynamics, so I can't wait! I might also audit an undergrad course on chinese philosophy with dr philo, so fingers crossed, wouldn't that be so ideal??
- agh fuck I still need to order another book for things - and I keep meaning to order Masha Gessen's latest number at the same time; it's Surviving Autocracy, so you know, like, fuck me, dude
- also just this month they came out as nonbinary, fuck yeah!!! yet another reason to love them :D!!
Also! I got promoted! ya boy is director of our little divison!! There was an absolutely terrifying week when I first took the reins and just like, didn't sleep enough at all bc I was Sure I was gonna screw up Everything... and then, you know, I didn't? and I haven't! and I'm moving projects along and advocating for our division's needs and building my connection with my mentor in the corporation and, and, what's even better, I'm trusting my staff more! oh my God it feels so good to know that someone has my back in turn!! When I first got my own desk in here we were at half capacity so I got used to pulling like three people's weight, and then the old director and I had a great dynamic so we got used to just handling everything ourselves, so I have been purely shit at delegating, lmao! But this morning was a very important meeting for the next few months' programming, aaand my internet crapped out entirely. Zoom spat me right out, and ofc I was pissed as hell but get this, I wasn't scared at all that our office would be left behind, because my AD was there too and I knew for absolute fact that he has our program planning down pat, and he could represent us without a hitch. I wanted to be part of the meeting, of course, but it didn't have to be me. fuck, dudes, having confidence in your colleagues feels so good! I wish we were in person just so I could get him a coffe and tell him how proud I am of him. I'm gonna have to work late tomorrow to make up what I missed today but I'm not putting out fires, we're on track, even without me being a total type A control freak the sky hasn't fallen. This is fucking amazing progress omg.
Also for Life Updates, the Renegade Bindery has guilded up! enguilded? coalesced?? we're a guild, anyway! I've been doing at least one binding step every evening after work and things, and having concrete progress and an artistic community has been so much fun you guys. I like sewing, but I kinda fell off the costuming wagon after leaving the opera for uni, because it's hard (for me) to keep up a hobby all on my own. But the Bindery is so much positive reinforcement :D! Zine is one scene, but fanbinding is a punk all of its own ;) fuck yeah we're gonna legitimize fic!
So hopefully I can keep these three prongs going into the semester, so I don't burn out on any one project. Academic brain debating everything it touches, office brain practicing at best practices, and artistic brain letting it all unwind! That sounds like a pretty good combo :)
and tonight's radio station is Ankh-Morpork Vibes on spotify, which achieves exactly that :D like, ignore the continent and check the mood on this: the brassiest orchestra! FWEEE exciting chaos noises! noble oboes that get swallowed by the bustling streets! just the sort of dramatic silliness for ankh-morpork!
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Date: 2020-08-22 03:44 am (UTC)And I do hope so! it'll be much better to have some more productive structure :)