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Jan. 21st, 2019 10:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
0denseI start classes next week and I still don't know if I've been accepted into the blended program, and honestly. honestly?
right now, I'm not even half so worried about that as I am that I'm going to lose friends this semester. it's such a huge life and time commitment, I hate the fact that it means I don't get to talk to people I care about. Or, I do, we're still in touch, but last year took a huge bite out of my ability to be casually present and communicative. It's hard to be spontaneous when I'm only around for a fraction of what we're used to.
it's no one's fault out of malice, but it breaks my heart and I don't know what to do.
I can't be clingy about it, either, bc I'm the one who's not gonna be around. so I don't have a right to bother anyone when it happens to suit me.
before last semester, I had a horrible premonition that this was going to happen then, and it did in a big way. and here we are again, at the precipice, and what can I do?
I'm gonna have school. I'm on a good track for the BA even if the MA doesn't get started right this second. but if I don't have my friends, I'm so screwed.
right now, I'm not even half so worried about that as I am that I'm going to lose friends this semester. it's such a huge life and time commitment, I hate the fact that it means I don't get to talk to people I care about. Or, I do, we're still in touch, but last year took a huge bite out of my ability to be casually present and communicative. It's hard to be spontaneous when I'm only around for a fraction of what we're used to.
it's no one's fault out of malice, but it breaks my heart and I don't know what to do.
I can't be clingy about it, either, bc I'm the one who's not gonna be around. so I don't have a right to bother anyone when it happens to suit me.
before last semester, I had a horrible premonition that this was going to happen then, and it did in a big way. and here we are again, at the precipice, and what can I do?
I'm gonna have school. I'm on a good track for the BA even if the MA doesn't get started right this second. but if I don't have my friends, I'm so screwed.
